I haven't written in a long time, I mean to but laziness and life gets in the way. Now as the year is ending I feel I need to write something. For a long time I've had nothing to say, but lately perhaps with the advent of my 60s I feel closer to death that I have in a long time, and I want to find something to believe in after all these years. For a long time I've been an atheist but now it seems I want something more. I can't believe that it all ends with death and that my consciousness will not continue. I want to believe in an afterlife in something beyond this life that we have here on earth. I don't know what this means, but my intention is to make this year a voyage of discovery, to try to regain some of the spirituality I once had. I want to return to the time of my youth when I felt such hope that we could change the world. In spite of the horrors that we faced,the draft ,the Vietnam war Kent state and Richard Nixon, we believed that we could change the world and make it a better place. I still believe that to some extent, and the young people of my daughters generation show a commitment to changing the world that they are not often given credit for. They have hope for the future and they are often denigrated as a lazy selfish self-centered generation. I do not believe this is so. Some of them surely, as such as some of us were ,but on the whole I see a generation that cares about the world and cares about making it a better place. They face great odds and the world is not a friendly place for them to exist in. There are no jobs ,housing is expensive and wages have not risen to meet the demands of inflation. And yet they are hopeful. They are gifted, creative, and intelligent, and they need our help to succeed, so let's give them all that we've got in terms of wisdom and financial support. For me I see this year as a journey of discovery .I intend to explore all that I can through reading ,experiences ,and meditation and any other options I find available to serve me in my quest for greater spirituality and a better understanding of the meaning of life. Wish me luck. Namaste, May Allah be with you, God bless. And may the wind be always at your back
