For RosemaryS

hi ro, it's been so long since we talked, you because you were unable to, and me because I couldn't think of anything to say to you, as you sat there so silent and far away. I just wanted to tell you how much I loved you and how sad it was to lose you twice, once to that dreadful illness, and again when you finally passed away. Alex believes in heaven and he is going to see you there, and if there is a heaven I know he'll be there to greet you. We've all missed you for such a long time, and I'm glad you're finally free of the hell you lived in for so many years, but I m sad that I'll never see you again ,the way you used to be. That's all, I loved you very much, and hope that you are finally at peace.

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lost yet still forgotten
like lovers whose faces i traveled across,
looking for something like the
lost view of broken sea walls where
little leg less things crawl,
loamy and full of brine,
lost to the sea and stars,
loved by no one.

the end is in sight,
maybe not today or tomorrow
or tomorrow , but coming
with lips pursed and silent,
taking my breath away.
nothing waiting,just empty space,
like being anesthesized ,
and not waking up in recovery.
but it's okay ,

it's been
a strange and beautiful ride,
here in the land of the living.