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Sunday, October 17, 2010

happiness

hi there- i've been trying to think of what to blog about and it  occurred to me that happiness is something that i never get tired of hearing about- that and gratitude that i have so much,and that i have so much to share about. i'm happy. not sad, not lonely, not depressed, not wishing i was someone else doing something else, but just happy to be who i am, doing what i'm doing. right now i feel as if i have everything i'll ever need, and if i had to wish for one thing it would be more time- time to spend with my family, more time for making art and exploring my creativity,reading my books ,writing and working on all of the projects i've been dying to try my hand at. don't get me wrong i wouldn't mind having a few things that would make my life easier- a bigger studio, someone to clean the house and take care of the dogs a shiny new jeep to travel around town in.but while these things would be nice,they are not essential- i am grateful to to have my little studio all to myself,grateful to be able to afford most of the supplies i need, and if i can't get them right away, i can just wait until i can afford it.i am so very grateful to the art lab for giving me a scholarship so i can afford to take another semester of printmaking(more on that later), which i'm really enjoying right now. if anything i have too much-too many ideas, too many projects i can't wait to get to, too many supplies i can't wait to use. so right now my cup is ever so full and i'm ever so happy and grateful for all that i have . my biggest problem is what i should do next!! more on all that later my thanks to the universe for making my life so full and so deeply rewarding,my thanks to you for listening,and as my daughter says peace out. lovely!!

Wednesday, October 6, 2010

Slowing down

Hello-i'm not sure what this post is going to be about-usually i have had some event happen in my life, or i've read or thought about something i want to share about, but today i'm not sure about what i'm going to say or what pictures i'm going to post.it's october: september seemed endless and would not go away,together with 90 degree heat-today it's chilly real fall weather and with the change in weather comes a change in me, and in my intentions: i want to slow down. all summer i seemed to be so busy, involved in art classes,e-classes, art challenges,lots of painting and drawing,lots of deadlines,lots of work.and even though i loved it while i was doing it i seem to have reached a time and place where i need to step back a little and think about what i want to do next and maybe spend some time not doing anything at all, so i can figure out what direction i want to go in and start again with gusto and conviction that this-whatever it is is the best way to use my time right now;that i'm doing what i need to do to move forward along my creative path and in my life as it is right now, as the year draws to a close. i want to sleep-i can't get enough of it, i want to curl up in my blankets and sleep for 8,9,10 hours a night. i want to read books and write in my journal with nothing more profound to say than it's such and such a day,and i did this and thought that. i want to take walks along the beach with my. husband and talk to him and listen to him talk to me, about nothing in particular-what happened at work, what we've been thinking about, sharing stories and reminiscing, laughing about life,loving each other as we put in our daily miles, making dinner together and reading or sketching alittle before i have to go to bed and sleep(yum), so i can get up at 5 to get to work every day. and at work i do just that-the work that needs to be done, with no time left over to read or do a little art or anything much that is not related to my winter job as a school nurse about as far wa from art as you can get. i did however get a scholorship to take another semester of printmaking at the art lab(thank you art lab people!!) so at least i will be doing that. and  yes i started another art journal, and have a piece in an art show at snug harbor, and am taking part though not as diligently as over the summer in two e-classes. but i don't feel as driven as i did all summer, at least for right now. so that's where i'm at and by next week it might change but for now you'll have to excuse me: it's 8:30 and it's almost time for bed.